I Wish...now I wish I never did.

Juno oppa really seems very excited to meet him again.
I smiled as I was still in the hallway after ending the call; holding my phone.
While walking back to the classroom I recollected the happening just before the phone call.
'I wonder what he was going to say... I just need to ask him another time.' I sighed.

Suddenly just then Raemin appeared in front of the classroom door, "I hope you don't mind but can you meet me at the playground near the school tomorrow after school?" He was fidgeting again. HE seriously looked like someone from my past. He sure behave like him too.

For the length that I've met him he always fidgets if he is nervous or insecure about something. I walked up to him. "Min-ssi, what's the matter?" I regretted asking that. When he looked up he bump into my head so I fell on the floor from the impact. He quickly knelt in front of me inspecting and looking for wounds, "Gwaenchana?...Sorry." He offered his hand to me to stand up.

'What is it with me and accidents these days.. Am I becoming prone to accidents?' I thought. The rest of the lesson we just went about our project and forgot about our little opening up to each other.

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After saying goodbye to Raemin I went inside the house. It like an oath between us that we go home together ever since Kooki and Kyoungmi are busy nowadays and we have to discuss our project anyway. So it's like a win-win situation however you try to look at it.

"I'm home!" I shouted while taking off my shoes and going to upstairs straight to my room. I faintly heard a quiet 'Yeh.' near the backgarden. I wonder what Oppa is up to now? He always seems to find ways to do something so unfitting for his age, and being an ajusshi. "Ummph!" I laid on my my bed until I slowly drifted to sleep.

##Dream

"Yah, student! Give me your lunch money, I'm hungry!" A girl approached me. She was wearing her uniform like it was for some kind of costume to woo the male students walking by.

"Yeh, we haven't got all day you know!" Right after the first girl commanded for money another appeared from behind her giving me a heart attack. She was so much in contrast to the first girl since she was someone that was like myself, a nerd.

"B-but...." I was just too shocked to answer since my Korean wasn't that good. I could hardly survive with what I know.

"But what, Freak!" The first girl cut me off.

"I don't have any...sorry sunbae." I whispered. I didn't have the courage to look at her directly so I just continued to look at the lush, green grass below me.

"Useless! What can be your punishment?" She said smirking while the other girl was already gone out of sight.

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"Serves you right!"

"...please, no" I managed to speak while also catching my breath. I crawled taking hold of her ankle and bagging her.

"Freak girl! You think you're smarter than us, you should be thankful this is all we did to you." She laughed as she ripped the last of my school textbooks. I knew crying would never get me anywhere so I ran. I ran to the far ends of the school fields until I saw the old abandoned building. The old music building.

##End

I shot my eyes open as I woke up out of breath my brother's hands were on my shoulders from when he was trying to waking me up. I guess this disease will never leave me til I reach my grave. Urgh! That day, that day what happened? I covered my face with my heads.

"Dae, what happened? You were yelling very loudly." He gave me a glass of water and my medicine. "Did you have that dream again?" He continued interrogating me with his worries. "I was just about to call you down since they're just arrived now... I'll let you sleep for now. I'll let them visit you in the morning." He left after much more persuasion and turning the light off.

I could sleep anymore so I just look at the ceiling thinking of the possibilities why that dream came back after 2 years. What's the use now?

Ever since his birthday and sudden disappearance, I have been having these nightmares and traumas. The doctors said it was caused by severe trauma that was held in too long and the lack of sleep I get. I beg to differ since I ever since I was young there was always something that people would point out as my weak points. I guess I lost hope in ever persevering to make myself better and healthy.

The next morning Oppa already left for school which left me trying to search for a note on the table. It said:

`
Dongsaeng-ah,

Did you have a good sleep? Well I brought Marc and Sander to my school today.
Don't worry you'll get to see them when you get home later.
Eat then go to school quickly okay?

Oppa




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Dae,

Sander and I were gonna surprise you yesterday, but we heard from Hyung what happened.
You okay now? See you later^^
Your bro really seems to be overly excited bringing us to meet his friends.

Bye

Sander and Me`

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I grabbed a banana and walked out of the door to head to school. After arriving, I went directly at the auditorium; to the piano and opened the top to reveal a box. The box which I had been keeping all of the items that he gave me during my first week of school here in Korea.

If you're thinking I had a boyfriend then you can just forget it. As awkward as it may sound, it was the person who stole my first kiss turned best friend for almost a year before he disappeared off to some place else. He was my only friend then, the principal specially requested for him to be my tour guide around campus. Apparently to be exposed 'only' in the normal environment of the school.

##Flashback

"Hello, Welcome to our school! I'm Taemin by the way." The boy grabbed my hand and shook it.
"I'm Jung Dae Ri, mannaseo bangapsumnida~" I said very softly which is different to the way I speak now since my voice became kinda husky. Like a boy right?... I get that all the time.
"From now on, lets be friends." He continued to smile at me.

I was a little hesitant at our first encounter but that slowly fade with time. We became inseparable, even in our classes we were always partners. I didn't know it then but girls in our class would give me daggers when I'm with him. 'Why do they care if I'm with Taemin? It's not like he is some kind of kingka in school in fact he was known as the school representative for geekiness some random classmate of mine once said.' I talked with myself giving one of the glaring girls a piece of my mind demonstration with my hands. You could say throughout the whole time I spent with Taemin he became some who changed me to a strong person with lots of confidence.

...

6 months into the year we were playing in the old building when we found an auditorium with a badly tuned piano. It became our hidden den which no one knew about. When we skip lessons we go here and contemplate or just simply sleep. That soon changed though, "Saengil chuka hae~" I said while holding a candle in front of him. He blew them out then looked suspiciously at me. "Eii, where's my birthday gift?" He walked dangerously close to me. I tried countering his actions but failed miserably. As a result that day became the last day I saw him. It is also the day my first kiss got stolen.

##End

I reminisced a ittle more before returning to class. "Riri~ remember your promise! Meet you later, I need to go to the library to do some research." Taemin passed by me. I was confused, what promise?
Besides accidents I'm becoming an ajumma.